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Friday, March 14, 2008
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
What is your name? Sarah
What is your quest? To find a purpose
What is your favorite color? Purple!
Ok. So, I have a job. I hate my job. I hate working for 'the man'. I hate corporate America. I can't even pretend to like it. I have a difficult time accepting my bosses who are money-grubbing fools. I don't like going to my job. I don't like my commute. I hate traffic with a passion. SUV's who think they are above the weather gods and can drive 50mph in 3'' of slush can go to hell quite frankly. You know what? Before the farm, I was fine. I was good. I was ok living in my world of naivete. I was okay with corporate America. Post-Farm, I suck at it. I hate it. It grinds on my very nerves. Every penny pinching job and action I do at work seem pointless. Yes, I'm doing my job, and I'm doing it very well. However, I get no satisfaction from it. I go home at the end of the day saying, yeah, good job, everything you didn't finish will still be there again tomorrow. It's getting to me. I find myself sinking into a funk, wishing it were time to quit this job and be on to the next... the next step of life. Hell, I'm getting married, that'll change things up. I'm ready for adventure and challenges. Instead, I'm in a job that believes in many things I don't appreciate any more, living in a house I grew up in, and in a city that I've outgrown. I guess you could say, I'm feeling a bit fruitless in my pursuit. I let things go that should have been finished long ago - Christmas cards - I still have 14 here that I'm going to send out... sometime. I just now cleaned my room to make it liveable after a few months.
I can go on, but I think I'm just whining. I think I need a new job. Has anyone else had a successful follow up to their job on the farm? Can really my best job in life be said that I was a cook on a farm?!!?
In other news, I'm getting over a 3 week long sinus infection reminiscent of my one from last Spring that landed me at the hospital and have thus been living in a haze for 3 weeks. Having a migraine for 2 of the 3 weeks made life amazing. Can you sense my sarcasm? * DRIP DRIP*
It just snowed a foot yesterday after a winter when we've had more snow than ever in my lifetime... hey, i thought I moved away from New England! It's Wednesday, and... it was also 80 degrees Sunday. In the happiest news of all, Joel gets here on Friday! He's coming in for his Spring Break, the last of his career as he is graduating in MAY!!! He'll be here in the 'Lou for the summer and then will be in NYC until I get there :) There we go, I feel like I'm in Peter Pan, that's my happy thought, the one that makes me float off the bed and fly...
Read some good books of recent: The Omnivore's Dilemna and I did just finish, Eat Pray Love. Both were pretty decent books, though oddly if you had asked while I was reading them if I liked them, I'd have said no. Odd... In retrospect, I enjoyed them, truly. I think the mood you go into a book with is often reflected in how you think about said book, or at least in my case it is.
Um, I've been reading correspondences from everyone, but with little energy to respond. I'm hoping to have that communication back up shortly. The meds are still tuning me out hard core.
I do miss cooking. I miss the big saucepans, 20 lbs. of beef and perfectly well done eggs in the morning. I miss the frangrances of the herbs, the chatter of our Argentinian Chef and the white board. I miss putting away stock, ducking in the fridge during the warm summer months and picking herbs out back from the garden. I miss the fresh veggies from Steve-o, the furtive glances of the hungry in the doorway, and the people. Nostalgia takes ahold of me every so often and I'm literally transported back into a time, a moment. A taste, a smell, a song even can take me there. It's special and I love those moments.
I just needed to put something, anything on paper. Now that the drought is over, I think I can write again more freely. BTW, I love reading everyone's blogs. It makes me feel like I'm talking to you. Peace.
What is your favorite color? Purple!
Ok. So, I have a job. I hate my job. I hate working for 'the man'. I hate corporate America. I can't even pretend to like it. I have a difficult time accepting my bosses who are money-grubbing fools. I don't like going to my job. I don't like my commute. I hate traffic with a passion. SUV's who think they are above the weather gods and can drive 50mph in 3'' of slush can go to hell quite frankly. You know what? Before the farm, I was fine. I was good. I was ok living in my world of naivete. I was okay with corporate America. Post-Farm, I suck at it. I hate it. It grinds on my very nerves. Every penny pinching job and action I do at work seem pointless. Yes, I'm doing my job, and I'm doing it very well. However, I get no satisfaction from it. I go home at the end of the day saying, yeah, good job, everything you didn't finish will still be there again tomorrow. It's getting to me. I find myself sinking into a funk, wishing it were time to quit this job and be on to the next... the next step of life. Hell, I'm getting married, that'll change things up. I'm ready for adventure and challenges. Instead, I'm in a job that believes in many things I don't appreciate any more, living in a house I grew up in, and in a city that I've outgrown. I guess you could say, I'm feeling a bit fruitless in my pursuit. I let things go that should have been finished long ago - Christmas cards - I still have 14 here that I'm going to send out... sometime. I just now cleaned my room to make it liveable after a few months.
I can go on, but I think I'm just whining. I think I need a new job. Has anyone else had a successful follow up to their job on the farm? Can really my best job in life be said that I was a cook on a farm?!!?
In other news, I'm getting over a 3 week long sinus infection reminiscent of my one from last Spring that landed me at the hospital and have thus been living in a haze for 3 weeks. Having a migraine for 2 of the 3 weeks made life amazing. Can you sense my sarcasm? * DRIP DRIP*
It just snowed a foot yesterday after a winter when we've had more snow than ever in my lifetime... hey, i thought I moved away from New England! It's Wednesday, and... it was also 80 degrees Sunday. In the happiest news of all, Joel gets here on Friday! He's coming in for his Spring Break, the last of his career as he is graduating in MAY!!! He'll be here in the 'Lou for the summer and then will be in NYC until I get there :) There we go, I feel like I'm in Peter Pan, that's my happy thought, the one that makes me float off the bed and fly...
Read some good books of recent: The Omnivore's Dilemna and I did just finish, Eat Pray Love. Both were pretty decent books, though oddly if you had asked while I was reading them if I liked them, I'd have said no. Odd... In retrospect, I enjoyed them, truly. I think the mood you go into a book with is often reflected in how you think about said book, or at least in my case it is.
Um, I've been reading correspondences from everyone, but with little energy to respond. I'm hoping to have that communication back up shortly. The meds are still tuning me out hard core.
I do miss cooking. I miss the big saucepans, 20 lbs. of beef and perfectly well done eggs in the morning. I miss the frangrances of the herbs, the chatter of our Argentinian Chef and the white board. I miss putting away stock, ducking in the fridge during the warm summer months and picking herbs out back from the garden. I miss the fresh veggies from Steve-o, the furtive glances of the hungry in the doorway, and the people. Nostalgia takes ahold of me every so often and I'm literally transported back into a time, a moment. A taste, a smell, a song even can take me there. It's special and I love those moments.
I just needed to put something, anything on paper. Now that the drought is over, I think I can write again more freely. BTW, I love reading everyone's blogs. It makes me feel like I'm talking to you. Peace.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
December 23, 2007
So, apparently you can ward off sickness, by wishing it away. Or so I'd like to think... I'm not sick for the holidays! That is something very few at my workplace are able to say. Therefore, I'm here at the family house and we're decking the place out. I put up the Christmas tree last Sunday and this week, siblings keep stopping by to wrap gifts and put them under the tree. Our gifts this year, instead of guessing, are based solely on what people need. It helps us control our excesses and focus on being helpful for sure. Right now, Aaron and Joel are outside putting up Christmas lights. That's right! Joel who got in town late last night after driving in from Penn State all day and Aaron who is up and walking now after his lawnmower accident. Aaron is cleared for all activities, still attends PT 3 times a week, and is doing very well. He has a bit of a limp and the surgeries will come, but not for a year or so. 500 days is the recovery time for this injury. Like in April, he has exercises and stretches and soreness to deal with in his foot every morning. I'm sure he's glad to be over the hardest part and living life much like his old self.
As for other little snippets of the past months...
Last weekend it snowed! It doesn't usually snow much or last long here, and the 8in. we got were the most since 2002! It lasted 4-5 days before the 50 degree weather crept in and melted it all at night. During the storm, we had an interesting phenomena happen in Thundersnow. There was thunder and lightening and it was snowing... Soooo odd.
Tuesday night, I went with some friends to see Wicked at the Fox! It was a great show and I'd love to see it again. I appreciated it so much having read the book and though it was changed a bit, I'm glad it had a happy ending.
Parties and more! Have been pleasantly surprised by the little pleasantries awarded at my new job. Little perks and giftcards, bonuses and 1/2 days as a matter of celebrating the holidays and encouraging employees to have a good time as well as rewarding folks for a job well done. It's working on me! I'm looking forward to having Monday and Tuesday off, then a three day week and then Mon and Tues next week for New Years!!!!!!!
Family time is nice htis time of year. My older brother and sister are coming in to see Joel and we're all going to play spades and drink tonight. Together time is really the focus here, the drinking is just part of the party. We got a few different bottles of wine we'd like to try out all in the name of finding a good wine for the rehearsal dinner for the wedding.
Dress finding! I've been out searching high and low for a dress for the wedding for me and one for my bridesmaids. I think the bridesmaid's one is set, and I'm 90% sure I've found mine. I'm going to put that one all on hold for now until Joel heads back to PA, which isn't for 3 weeks. YAY. It'll be like we're actually going out or something.
Reception.... We found a place! It's going to be great. I went to a tasting there last month and am going again this month just because. The food was amazing. The chef lived up to his reputation and experience from having worked at the Ritz Carlton. After my experience at the farm, I enjoy food and can say that I enjoyed the culinary tastes this chef has to offer!!! A feat, I wasn't sure I'd be able to find in a reception hall for sure.
Weight Loss Challenge. The end is coming to this challenge of 4 months. I'd have to say that losing any weight over the time period makes it an accomplishment and well worth the effort. I'm a little over 5 pounds down and that's probably more than I would have done had we not been in the competition. Others are down considerably more, Aaron for one, so we're not sure exactly how valid this competition really has been with a catastrophic event taking place during it. Half of us couldn't eat for a month, others couldn't stop eating in the worry. After a short break, we may start another one in all measures of fairness.
Family... It'll be sad not spending Christmas with friends at the farm and family in Hawaii. I feel like I'm wanting to be here, there and everywhere at this time of year to say hello to friends and family from all over.
This year and beyond. For Christmas, I've told my family that we'll reveal our plans for after we get married, where Joel will be come graduation and the date of the wedding, which is a secret to all but Joel and I. They haven't liked waiting for these 2 1/2 months, but I'm finding that it's been the best plan all along. We've had the luxury of being able to switch things around and adjust and theorize and such without pressure.
Anyways, it's been a quick and wonderful December. I've loved going out to buy gifts, write cards (which I'm still writing), and getting in the Christmas mood with Christmas music.
Happy Holidays!
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Dec 20
HI! I am not getting sick, I am not getting sick, I AM NOT GETTING SICK! No sniffles, runny nose or tickle cough. Off and away with you.
Here at work, realizing I've been meaning to do this for the greater part of 3 weeks. I'm working. Just took lunch here at the desk. Tonight is the work Christmas party. Tuesday was Wicked at the Fox - absolutely amazing, and thank you Joe M. for the soundtrack and the wine! I'm sooo looking forward to listening and sipping this weekend. Looking for some free time, as of now, I have none. Mon-Fri is work and a couple classes at the gym, misc. outings, parties, and events. Saturdays have been reserved for dress shopping and Sunday is Bill day and clean up the room. I can't imagine how much harder cleaning up a larger area is going to be. It takes all day to re-do just my room and it is tiny, and it gets that dirty in less than a week!. Oye.
Sitting here at my new desk in its' new location. 2 of us now work in this office and have a large nice new desk area, they just are revamping the entire office after 20 years here. It looks nice, we have variations of gray, blues, tans all over and in my office, a purple accent wall. It's pretty. Because our office is more prominently placed, we get new stuff too! A new chair, all the stuff on my desk - office supplies, ok, yeah, I'm a dork, small joys. I spend a good portion of my week here, I like nice things! So, things are coming together, I'm learning my job a bit more each day and every once in awhile something bigger clicks and I feel 5 times better about what I'm doing. I like those moments.
Anxiously trying to find time to finish my Christmas cards... let's face it, they'll be Holiday cards. Almost all through buying Christmas gifts... they may also turn into Holiday gifts.
Wishing everyone well and needing to get back to doing work. I will have to catch up sometime, right?
Here at work, realizing I've been meaning to do this for the greater part of 3 weeks. I'm working. Just took lunch here at the desk. Tonight is the work Christmas party. Tuesday was Wicked at the Fox - absolutely amazing, and thank you Joe M. for the soundtrack and the wine! I'm sooo looking forward to listening and sipping this weekend. Looking for some free time, as of now, I have none. Mon-Fri is work and a couple classes at the gym, misc. outings, parties, and events. Saturdays have been reserved for dress shopping and Sunday is Bill day and clean up the room. I can't imagine how much harder cleaning up a larger area is going to be. It takes all day to re-do just my room and it is tiny, and it gets that dirty in less than a week!. Oye.
Sitting here at my new desk in its' new location. 2 of us now work in this office and have a large nice new desk area, they just are revamping the entire office after 20 years here. It looks nice, we have variations of gray, blues, tans all over and in my office, a purple accent wall. It's pretty. Because our office is more prominently placed, we get new stuff too! A new chair, all the stuff on my desk - office supplies, ok, yeah, I'm a dork, small joys. I spend a good portion of my week here, I like nice things! So, things are coming together, I'm learning my job a bit more each day and every once in awhile something bigger clicks and I feel 5 times better about what I'm doing. I like those moments.
Anxiously trying to find time to finish my Christmas cards... let's face it, they'll be Holiday cards. Almost all through buying Christmas gifts... they may also turn into Holiday gifts.
Wishing everyone well and needing to get back to doing work. I will have to catch up sometime, right?
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